Growing to Love What They Called a Sin

Elessar Younglove (they/fae)

I want to say I love 
​Like a needle through my skin 
I want to say I love you 
In the way Adam first tasted sin 
I adore you and it seems a waste
To say something so beautiful 
In such a humble place 

If I could do what I wanted to 
I'd spend a lifetime with you 
I don't know how to write an invitation 
As inviting as your blue eyes 

I don't have to justify my existence to you 
I can exist and be happy 
In the space we made for each other 
While holding the other 
Like the key to open every door 

I finally feel happy 
I finally feel free 
Everything else is falling apart 
But I know you hold hands with me 

You make me feel real 
You make me feel sweet
I could write about your smile
And the way you spoil me 
But I'm just to happy 
That we're trying to be free

I know it isn't perfect 
But all that means is we have 
More life to bottle together 
Your favorite color is soft and sweet 
I want to hear your voice in the morning 
Your fingers curl in mine 
Like a bow over red paper 

The gentle declaration of your adoration 
Is warm and soft
Like bread we'll bake in the kitchen
Before flour dusts my cheek 
And you cleanse it with a kiss

You make me want to be extra 
To be magnificent 
To share every part of me with you 
Until you can walk my skin blindfolded 
And the only sense I have 
Is the warmth of your skin 

I yearn for your touch in reds and spice 
And even more so 
In soft calls 
In lily lavished balconies 
And any song with your name 

I want to say 
I love you 
Like a needle through my skin 
I want to say 
I love you 
In the way Adam first tasted sin 
I should tell you I adore you 
And it seems an awful waste 
To say something so beautiful 
In such a humble place

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